have you ever been so close that it scared you?
have you ever wanted to lose yourself in the moment but been scared you'd never find yourself again?
have you ever wondered how some things are so beautiful but so terrible at the same time?
have you ever wondered how others see you?
have you ever gotten involved with someone you knew would eventually hurt you?
have you ever done something bad just to do it?
have you ever been so sad you couldn't cry?
--have you ever felt like a callous person because you couldn't cry?
have you ever felt empty no matter how much you eat?
have you ever heard a song whose beat matches your heart's?
have you ever felt alienated?
have you ever wondered if anyone else could see how different you feel?
--have you ever wondered if you're good different or bad different?
have you ever heard people talk about you behind your back?
have you ever wanted to make a snow angel in July or go swimming in January?
have you ever stood on a mountaintop and felt small?
have you ever been mad at a friend just for being themselves?
have you ever wondered if anyone can guess your private thoughts?
have you ever wondered what lies ahead?

ugh, my mind is so scrambled.